A Touch of Fire

A touch of fire singes the fringes
Of the fraying edges of a cold gray day
In the corner of Kansas.

Thin bits of ice glaze the rails of the round pen
Where the pair of geldings send steaming breath
Into the last shreds
Of chopped alfalfa and pelletized grain
Held in heavy buckets
Above the mud and muck of three days of drizzle.
Dark specks along their backs and flanks
Mark the few drops of rain
That came in mid afternoon.

A northern wind sends thoughts of winter
Splintering through the last hours
Of the last Sunday in October
While freeze-wilted leaves droop
Below the branches of maple and mulberry
In the paddock beyond the stable.

Walking back toward the house,
I look again out past the ridge
Where hardwoods trace black silhouettes
Against the glowing sky.

Beauty has often softened
The harsher lines of Truth
And offered proof that there is Light
Beyond the cutting edge of every storm.



H. Arnett
10/29/23

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Macho Man on Steroids

There’s a scene in the movie Young Guns II where Billy the Kid and his pals ride out to wealthy landowner John Chisum’s ranch. Chisum (portrayed by James Coburn) confronts Emilio Estevez’s titular character, “You call yourself ‘The Scourge of New Mexico.’ Well, by ___, I am New Mexico.’”

It’s a classic scene, very well played by both actors. Sort of an iconic, riches versus rebellion, smug political power versus cocky sociopath, etc. Oddly enough, there’s a scene in the Lazarus story as conveyed in John’s account that resonates with this a bit.

Just before Jesus arrives back in Bethany, Martha confronts him (11:21) with, “My brother would not have died if you had been here.”

Isn’t that just how we think? “Lord, if you’d really been with me, you wouldn’t have let this tragedy happen?” “Lord, if your presence was truly with us, you’d have never let our loved one die, or our house burn down, or our child get so sick.” So often, it seems we gauge the Lord’s presence and blessing by the degree to which he gives us what we want. Instead of focusing on and rejoicing in the grace and strength he provides to overcome every adversity and endure every testing, we measure his favor by indulgence of our desires. So human, isn’t it?

In dealing with this particular human in this occasion, Jesus reassures Lazarus’s sister, “Your brother will rise again.” She doesn’t quite get his meaning and in her grief and in a completely rational human way, she misunderstands his intended comfort.

Jesus doesn’t explain that his timetable is quite a bit sooner than Martha expects. There’s not a “No, Martha, I was thinking more like a half-hour from now.” When Martha replies with, “I know that he will rise again in the resurrection at the last day,” Jesus doesn’t provide gentle, clear, comfort.

What he does do is go pure macho, John Wayne/Clint Eastwood/Arnold Schwarzenegger/James Coburn all rolled into one. Without any reservation, contrived bravado, or hint of bluster, the Carpenter looks her right in the eye and calmly asserts, “I am the resurrection and the life.”

And he’s not done with that, either, no sir! He goes on with, “The one who believes in me will live, even though they die; and whoever lives by believing in me will never die.”

And then, and this is the absolute crux of this moment, he asks Martha the most important question she’s ever heard, “Do you believe this?”

With more confidence than Billy the Kid or Jesse James ever contrived, she looks right back at him and says without hesitation, “I believe that you are the Messiah.”

It’s quite the thing, really. The dude has just made perhaps the most preposterous claim imaginable. Something way beyond claiming to be able to walk on water, turn water into wine, or heal the blind. This is galactically beyond all reasonable assertion, self-aggrandization, inflated ego, or unimaginable narcissism. This dude must be insane, incredibly self-deluded, totally beyond the sphere of psychological redemption, out there past Pluto whether it’s a planet or not, completely, incurably, wacko.

Unless, of course, Martha is right about him.

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Mighty Fine Stuff

I’m not sure what it is that so draws me to making apple cider. I do know that as far back as I can remember, the process of grinding up apples and pressing out the juice fascinates me. Maybe it’s the family connection; maybe it’s the mechanical marvel of it. Might also have something to do with the association with glorious autumn days, the emerging change of seasons. It’s also not outside the realm of possibility that the anchoring in my early years of growing up in West Kentucky might be some influence. Perhaps it even includes the sheer wonder of flavor and the delight of crisp, clean, sweetness with a touch of tartness on the palate. I’m pretty sure it’s all of that and a couple more aspects as well.

As to the family connection, my earliest memory of using the old, hand-cranked mill goes back over sixty years and involves my next older brother, Paul. The mill itself is a compact wonder of design, simplicity, and efficiency. Using only human energy leveraged by mechanical advantage, it grinds apples into small bits and pieces and then presses out juice from those pieces.

After Paul left home to seek life in other places, Dad and I would sometimes make cider together. In particular, during my college years, I remember us making cider in Kelvie Nicholson’s small orchard in Graves County and then fishing together in his bass pond. Whether it was Paul and me, or Dad and me, or me and whoever, honey bees, yellow jackets, wasps, dirt-daubers and butterflies swarmed around the pile of pummies (pulp left over after the pressing out the juice), prowled around the slats, crawled around the rim of the pan and occasionally fell into the swirling flow of the juice as it ran from the collector pan into the plastic or metal pan set on the ground to catch the juice.

It’s probably the sight of that juice running out from between the spaced slats of the basket and out of the collector pan into the dishpan that most fascinates me. What was a bunch of apples just a couple of minutes earlier is transformed into a stream of richly flavorful and delightfully sweet juice. In spite of the bruises and bug bites, defects and deficiencies that keep every apple from being perfect, all surrender and contribute to the cider. All individual identity is lost but a glorious new quality and nature is attained. Not fit to be compared with spiritual transformation but nonetheless remarkable and delightful.

So, yeah, there’s all of that: background, familial and regional identity, metaphysical spiritual lessons, connection to a bygone era. Maybe that last part’s a strong bit of the draw for me. Days when families and neighbors worked together and shared nature’s bounty through hard labor and pleasant fellowship. And, increasingly as the years have passed, I’ve felt a sense of identity and distinction whenever I make cider using a hand-cranked mill. I don’t think there’s a lot of folks left that do that anymore. The fact that it’s a bit of inherited skill and tradition doesn’t hurt anything.

I savor those skills and traditions every time I bend my back into the cranking, grind up apples, turn the press and watch that rich nectar pouring out of the wooden pan. Over the years, I’ve made cider with old men (and women) and young children, some of them my children and grandchildren. I’ve washed up apples and cranked out cider with longtime friends, neighbors, and fellow church members. This year, in separate sessions, I’ve made cider with a friend I’ve had for nearly twenty years, with a daughter-in-law and her mother, with a close spiritual brother, and with my wife. Lord willing, in this next week I’ll make some more with some more of my grandkids, a couple of cousins, and some really close friends.

And, each time, whether working with family or friends, I make new memories that add to the rich, delectable blend of history and association. Memories that become part of who I am. Memories that become attached somehow to the process and the parts of this old hand-cranked mill.

The cider’s not bad, either.

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Lessons from Lazarus-Part II

Beyond Death

The apostle John provides an account regarding the response of Jesus to the news that his good friend Lazarus is gravely ill. In the early part of the story, Jesus alerts his disciples, “This sickness will not end in death.”

Now those of you even slightly familiar with the story might rightly point out, “But Lazarus did die.” And indeed, he did. Quite dead. Definitely dead. Buried and in the grave four days dead by the time Jesus arrived.

Yes, but that wasn’t the end.

You see, Jesus already knew, even before Lazarus died, that he was going to bring Lazarus back to life. That’s why he told his disciples, “I’m going to go wake the dude up.”

And he also tells Mary that Lazarus will live again. Now she, understandably, thinks Jesus is referring to the Great Big Getting Up Day. Uhm… actually he meant a good bit sooner than that. So then, he goes on to state that whoever believes in him will never die. Which isn’t really true, right? I mean, come on, thousands—even millions—of believers have very definitely died since Jesus said that.

Or did they?

Okay, right, yes, the physical body which served as their primary conveyance in this world has ceased operations. Quite dead. Definitely dead. Buried and in the grave more than four days dead, most of them.

But is their physical body truly them? Their essence?

Per my current understanding and belief, when a plant or an animal dies, it’s over. That’s it. Gone. Deceased. Dead forever. No longer exists. There’s no mention in the entirety of scripture that trees, bugs, squirrels, deer, moose, hawks, squash, whales, or any other critter, creature, or other such thing will ever live again once it has passed on. They cease to exist.

None of them, according to scripture, have a soul. We do.

And that soul will never cease to exist. So… if something continues to exist… it’s not really dead, is it? Even if its form is spiritual rather than physical.

And so, no matter what is going on in your life as a believer, no matter how sickening, no matter how dreadful, no matter how painful, no matter how tormenting, no matter how upsetting, it will not end in death.

Per the promise of him who raised Lazarus—and others—you will live again. Now, how ‘bout dat?!

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Plan C for Cider

So… the plan was that our daughter-in-law Leah was going to show up yesterday afternoon with a truckload of apples so we could make cider. She would go over in the morning and pick the apples and then bring them over to our place. And we’d make cider. Lots of apples, lots of cider. That was the plan.

First drawback was the fact that it rained the night before and made where she drove to get the apples so slick she got stuck in the mud. Even with four-wheel drive, she was barely able to get out. The second drawback was that there just weren’t very many apples. So instead of seeing a few hundred pounds of apples in the back of her truck when she got over here just before noon, I saw maybe fifteen pounds. Maybe. Not enough to bother with.

“Well,” I suggested, “I need to do a little more work on this fence repair job I’m working on. How about you come back over at 2:30 and we’ll go over and try our luck at this other little orchard.” I added a cautionary note, “We may not get very many. My friend Greg and I were over there two weeks ago and most of the apples were too far gone. But there were still several late apples on the trees. Maybe we can get enough to make a little cider.”

And so, Leah and her mother Judy went back home in St. Joseph. I ate lunch and then worked on the fence project. They came back and we headed over to the orchard. My, what a pleasant surprise awaited us there!

The owner had mowed the entire orchard, leaving the grass low and making it easy to find and pick up the apples. When Greg and I were there, only one in twenty apples was fit to use. But now the old groundfall apples from two weeks ago had all turned a dark brown, making it easy to spot freshly fallen apples. The little storm that came through the night before had blown down a bunch of new, fresh apples.

In just forty-five minutes, the three of us had picked up over three hundred pounds of apples. Big apples, juicy apples, sweet apples, tasty apples. Leah also found a garter snake but decided to leave it in the orchard. I might put some sort of mushy apples in the mill, and there might be a bug or two that doesn’t get extracted until the cider goes through the strainer, but we are pretty much vegetarian when it comes to cider ingredients. We even wash the apples!

As we worked, Leah, Judy and I all commented on how perfect the weather was. “Not too hot and not too cold,” Judy quipped, as she dipped some more apples into the rinse water. “Yes, it’s perfect,” Leah and I agreed. Mid-seventies, no wind, bright sun. My, what a pleasant afternoon for making cider!

It was nearly dark by the time we finished milling the payload, but the payoff was definitely worth it. A day that had started out as a disappointment flirting with disaster had ended up with a very satisfying conclusion. Nearly fifteen gallons of satisfaction, as a matter of fact. If you’ve ever tasted fresh, sweet, golden, right out of the press apple cider, you know what I mean.

Sometimes the day the Lord has made is so much better than the one we were planning on, you just feel plum loved. And maybe a little spoiled… nah, just loved.

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Lessons from Lazarus-Part I

God’s Timing

Of the gospel writers, only John includes the story of the death and resurrection of Jesus’s good friend, Lazarus. For reasons John maybe didn’t know or just chose not to disclose, the Carpenter took a special liking to Lazarus and his sisters, Mary and Martha. Even before Mary put some really special stuff on Jesus’s feet.

Being as how they were really close to Jesus, you’d figure that as soon as Jesus heard that Lazarus was really, really sick, he would get over there really, really quick.

You’d be wrong. According to John’s account, Chapter Eleven, Jesus hung out right where he was for a couple more days. Even when he knew that Lazarus was dying. Even when he knew Lazarus was dead. Even when his disciples misunderstood what he meant when he said he was going to go wake Lazarus up. Even after he told them plainly, “Lazarus is dead.”

And he probably knew that when he got there, the sisters would blame him: “Lord, if you’d been here, our brother would not have died.”

That’s kind of how we are, isn’t it? “You know I’m sick, Lord. Why haven’t you fixed it yet?” “You know what I’m dealing with here; why haven’t you made it better?” And on and on and on we go.

Because we don’t know what God knows. Because we don’t know what his plan is. Because his timing is not our timing and his ways are not our ways. Because he’s God and we aren’t.

Because some things are intended for God’s glory and not for our satisfaction. And sometimes, we play a key role in those things.

Kind of a privilege, really, isn’t it? Not always fun, true. But still a privilege. And, on my better days, I’d have to say that playing a part in God being glorified is considerably more satisfying than having fun.

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Almost Cut My Hair

Back in the late Sixties, a teenage farm boy in West Kentucky wanted to grow his hair long. Now, he wasn’t a hippie or a druggie or anything like that. He didn’t go around slashing people’s tires, setting their garages on fire, or throwing eggs at their house. Heck, he didn’t even TP anyone’s yard!

He didn’t smoke—factory or hand-rolled (wink, wink)—he didn’t drink, he didn’t cuss. Well, actually, he did cuss a little bit, but mostly only when he was milking cows or cleaning up after them in the milk shed.

He went to church every Sunday morning and Sunday night, never missed Wednesday Bible study unless his school basketball team was playing in a tournament. That only happened once while he was in high school. He helped out his elderly neighbors and the younger ones, too. Worked hard and was extremely reliable as a farm hand.

He wasn’t out to change the world or run off with a rock-n-roll band. He just wanted his hair to cover his ears and his shirt collar. But that was not at all acceptable to his father. He very much preferred crew cuts and flat tops for his sons. A moustache, or at least a facsimile of one, was tolerable. But the hair… no, sir! Couldn’t cover the top of the ear or touch the collar.

So, one day when the dad noticed that this young man’s hair did touch the top of his ear and had begun to linger near his shirt collar, he issued an ultimatum. “You get a hair cut or I’m going to pull your driver’s license!”

Losing your driver’s license as a sixteen-year-old farm kid in the late Sixties would be something akin to being kicked out on the street, poked blind in one eye, and being surgically neutered. So, still having two good eyes and at least half a brain, and all the other original factory equipment, the lad hied himself to a barber, post haste.

The barber seated the young man, wrapped a big nylon cloth in place, revved up his trimmers, adjusted his glasses, and squinted down at the boy, “What’ll it be today, son?”

The boy stared straight ahead into the mirror and didn’t miss a beat. “I want a haircut. But when you’re finished, I don’t want anyone but you and me to be able to tell that I’ve been here.” He paused, possibly for dramatic effect, then added, “And I want us to wonder about it.”

Being as how the price was the same and he had no other skin in the game, the barber obliged. As you might imagine, it was only a day or two before the boy came back for a real haircut. For some dads, complying with the letter of the law and not the spirit is insufficient.

I’m afraid that far too many times, that’s the sort of “conversion experience” that some folks seem to want. “Lord, I don’t want anybody but us to know I’ve been here…”

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The Wonder of God

In the trace of all that you have made, O Lord,
in the witness of the wind and the rain,
in the testimony of pleasure and pain,
in the script of soil and sand,
I see the work of your hand
and I marvel.

In the record of all that you have done, O Lord,
in the ache of winter and the scorch of sun,
in the way that water moves on the face of the earth,
in the stillness of death and the thrashing of birth,
I wonder at your ways
and I kneel.

In the patterns that you have sorted, O Lord,
in the horse’s mane and the hummingbird’s wing,
in the coyote’s yelp and the warbler’s sing,
in the wood moth’s blend and the butterfly’s bright,
I gain some glimpse of your great might
and I admire.

In the working of your ways in my own heart, O Lord,
in the grinding of bitter pride and each new start,
in the gentle softening of mournful pain,
in the mercy and grace of unearned gain,
I feel your tender touch
and I yield.

In the witness of your great love, O Lord,
in fire and wind and a white-winged dove,
in the shadows of an ancient cross,
in earth’s own rumbling at heaven’s loss,
I see the measure of redemption
and I rejoice.

In your presence, O Lord,
I marvel,
I kneel,
I admire,
I yield.
I rejoice.

Blessed be your name,
O Lord.
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Moonshadow Mystery at Haven Hill

A beautiful three-quarter moon rose well before dusk last evening. Glorious. A few thin clouds drifted across the sky as it shone just above the branches of our big spruce tree.

Just before dark, Randa and I went out onto the back patio to relax a while. We soon had a nice fire going in the portable fire pit. We love sitting out there and watching the flames flickering and, later, the coals glowing. The colors and patterns are constantly changing and are always entertaining. Sometimes, we listen to music. Sometimes, we talk. Sometimes, we just sit and watch the fire.

After a while, I needed to go out to the garage for a quick errand. By then, it was dark. As I walked around the house, I stepped into the full glow of the moon. Clear sky, cool night. I easily followed the path toward the garage. With my little old Ford Ranger parked right in the shadows of the birch tree near the front of the garage, I had to watch not to bump into it. Its navy-blue color blended right into the darkness.

Just before I got to the truck, I noticed the motion of shadows on the concrete in front of me. “That’s weird,” I thought, “There shouldn’t be any shadows there.”

I stood still for a moment, then realized that the shadows were from my legs. Since the birch tree was blocking the moon, I knew that couldn’t be the source. There aren’t any yard lights or streetlights around that could cause those shadows. Even though I knew that, I still looked around behind me. Nope, no yard lights or streetlights.

I stepped over and back. Yep, shadows of my legs clearly showing on the concrete. “Well,” I concluded, “there’s a pretty simple way to solve this mystery.”

I crouched down low and turned around, looking toward the opposite direction of the shadows. I kneeled even lower and moved a few feet closer to the house. Mystery solved!

High up on the third level of our old house, the moon reflected brightly from the attic window. Brightly enough to cast shadows in the shadow of the birch trees by the garage.

Somehow, I’ve managed to live in rural places and other spaces for nearly seventy years without ever having noticed shadows cast by a reflected moon. If I’d gone out to the garage ten minutes earlier or ten minutes later, I’d still have not seen them. If I hadn’t been looking carefully at the ground, I wouldn’t have seen them. If the leaves had been gone from the trees, if it had been cloudy, if…

I marvel from time to time about the way that timing has to be so precise in order for us to witness a particular event, phenomenon, appearance, or whatever. Whether by deliberate design or happy circumstance, whether by intense seeking or blissful coincidence.

But no matter how fortuitous the timing, it doesn’t matter what wonders surround us unless we keep our eyes open.

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Quarter Moon in a Broken Sky

The soft chill of an evening breeze 
stirs the leaves of locust and maple.
Slow mist forms over the stillness of the pasture,
sheltered by the bluffs and woods.
The low ridge that rises up beyond the bridge
phases from thin gray at its base
to dark silhouette at its crest
where a solitary oak tree rests from the day’s heat.

The low light of a quarter-moon 
in something like high noon position
filters through drifting clouds,
a barely glowing shroud
broken by birch branches out past the garage.

In something like a mirage of rest,
a nylon hammock hangs in the shadows
beneath and between two of the trees,
anchored by strong ropes on each end
above the barely tended lilies and solitary hosta.

We lean back in our lawn chairs
beneath the ornamental peach tree on the patio,
listening to Jackson Brown and Jimmy Buffet
and other classic rock-n-roll,
watching the shadows of the moon slowly work their way
around the edge of an old two-story frame house,
yet not quite reaching the stones
that we will walk into the coming night,

into the coming rest that follows this day
that the Lord has blessed with peace and bread.


H. Arnett
9-26-23

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