Nightfire on an Early March Evening

All day long a strong prairie wind
has blown in bits of Oklahoma
and sent some of Kansas
a little farther north.

But it has been a warm wind
and when it finally eased off
in the evening, it seemed
like a mighty fine thing to do

so I set up the lounge chairs
on the cracked and weathered boards
of what we might call a back porch
and hauled out the chiminea.

From the dead limbs
we packed out of the yard
of an empty house
down the street

I cut up enough seasoned maple
to make fire seem like an easy thing.
Above the paper towel I’d used
to soak up a spill of paint thinner

I stacked the sticks,
leaning them against a thicker branch
the way a family tends toward
its strongest member

and laying on a larger one
across the top.
A single match managed
to start the fire

and soon a blaze of shadows
played across the vertical slats.
We sat for a couple of hours,
taking slow savory sips

of some twenty-year-old tawny port—
a fine gift from a fine friend—
and took the rest
of a good day’s ending

soaking in the warmth,
talking in low voices
while the dark deepened around us
beyond the glow of the fire

and watching the coals shimmering
through the screen
like love made stronger and better
by something other than oak casks.

We have held to things that last
and found that some of the stronger gusts
may shake the limbs
and stir the dust

but what is held by deeper roots
will bend and sway
and give up whatever
has grown brittle in the dry spells,

but it will not lose its way
even in the long chill of the darkest nights.

H. Arnett
3/4/16

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Looking Forward to the Finishing

This is the slow part of the ceiling project: taping and filling the joints, covering the recessed screw heads and then the sanding. It’s not as slow as it was when I first started out at this sort of thing thirty years ago, but it’s still slow. And it has its ugly stage, too. About halfway through, it’ll look like some preschooler’s clay project. There’ll be humps and bumps and bulges and such.

The hanging part went pretty quickly, all things considered. Once Jay and I had fastened up the furring strips over the old, heavily textured and badly peeling ceiling, putting up the new went well. Using the twelve-foot sheets, we had the new drywall installed in about sixteen hours or so. We set no records and impressed no one but ourselves and our wives, but the dining room/living room and hallway were done.

Even without being filled, primed or painted, it looked better than the old ceiling.

Well, it did before I started taping the edge joints last night. Now it’s got those long jagged white stripes running along the length of the rooms. And it’ll look worse after the next coat and the one after that. But, if I don’t give up or get kidnapped in the next week or two, it’ll get done. Every dip, gouge and seam will be covered and sanded smooth. Priming and painting will leave a nice expanse of flat white ceiling that will look as if it had always been part of the house. Visitors will have no idea, unless we tell them, how ugly it used to be. They’ll just see what it has become and not even think about all the work that went into it.

Just like the folks who will one day only see what we have become by the grace and shaping of God’s good hand. They won’t see the humps and bumps and bulges and such. They won’t know about the old cracks and seams and rough edges that took many years of soothing and smoothing. They’ll not see the long jagged joints and they won’t know or care about our ugly stages.

They’ll just see those fine white robes and figure we fit in just as well as they do. And we’ll all give glory to the One whose work has made us something we could never be without His finishing touch.

H. Arnett
3/2/16

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Power Lift

I learned many years ago that a guy could install ceiling drywall by himself. Fasten a cleat to one wall an inch or so below the ceiling level. Place one end of the sheet on that cleat, lift the other end up and then wedge a T-brace beneath it. Then… fasten that sucker in place. Voila! “Who needs to rent a drywall lift?” I congratulated myself.

There were three or eight reasons why I insisted on not renting a lift. One was to save money. Another was that I am a tightwad. A third would be that I’m as stubborn as a concrete fencepost. I hesitate to mention that it was also inconvenient to have to drive to the rental place, pick up the lift, drive back home, have to unload the lift, then reload it, drive back to the rental place and then unload the lift again. The reason I hesitate to mention that is that if all of that only counts as one more reason, I’m stuck above three and short of eight. If each part counts separately, then I’m over eight. Don’t want to exceed my own limitations, you know…

Well, folks, I had myself a bit of a conversion experience this weekend. My stepson, Jaylon, came down for the weekend with his wife, Leah. He planned to help me install drywall after they’d done some professional shear sharpening for a local styling salon. I’d calculated that using twelve-foot drywall sheets instead of eight-foot sheets would save me at least eight end joints on the finishing. Since end joints are a pain in the end, that idea seemed right attractive to me. I knew, though, there was no way we were going to be lifting twelve-foot sheets overhead and trying to hold those up with one hand while we slid T-braces into place. Besides, we only live six blocks from the rental place. Doc the Tightwad rented the drywall lift.

Boy Howdy was that the right move! Cut the sheet to desired length and shape, set it on the lift, crank it up, move it into final position, crank it up snug then start fastening. What an improvement! Saved time, energy, effort, frustration and physical pain. I thought back over the years and projects of doing it the hard way and told Jay, “That may have been the worst money I ever saved!”

I also thought about all my years of trying to live a godly life without really trusting God. I thought about the years of trying to be a Christian without relying on Christ. I also thought about the frustration of trying to be spiritual without walking in step with the Spirit. I’m pretty sure that whenever I try to operate in my own strength I fall far short of what could be accomplished through that Greater Power.

H. Arnett
2/29/16

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Quit Limping!

My progress after the slight knee surgery I had at the end of December had progressed somewhat more slowly than my impatience desired. I’d hoped that after a month or so, I’d be happily walking the hallways. Perhaps leaping tall buildings in a single bound was somewhat ambitious, I’ll admit. I’ll also admit that the limp and shuffle up and down steps was getting aggravating, as was the limping everywhere else. My routine had gotten pretty simple otherwise: limp around all day, spend evenings on the couch with my left leg propped up.

I finally got so aggravated I went up for prayer during altar call three weeks ago yesterday. I felt a warming on my back from the hands of the man praying for me. I also felt a sense of divine presence, which increased when Pastor James anointed me and prayed for me. The next day, I reported to Pattie, director of physical therapy at the local hospital.

After the first session, as I was leaving, Pattie called out from behind me, “Quit limping!” I stopped and turned, looked at her for a few seconds. Among possible retorts I considered was, “I’ll quit limping when it stops hurting.” Instead, after quickly considering the expression on her face, I went with Plan B, “You’re serious, aren’t you?” She was, indeed.

So, in spite of the continuing discomfort, I started trying to walk without a limp. I didn’t fool me or anybody else at first, but I kept trying and making progress each day. As I considered my pain and my progress, it made sense to me.

As long as I kept favoring that leg, I would continue to cultivate the weakening of certain muscles. I would also prevent the knee from developing tolerance for the increased range of motion. I would continue placing more strain on the other leg and both hips. So, I made myself walk as close to normally as I could. I also continued going to therapy three times a week.

Between my efforts, Pattie’s benevolent torture and the Lord’s grace, I continued making very good progress. The range of motion in the left knee is nearly equal to that of the right knee. The muscles are responding, too. I’m not bounding up and down the stairs three at a time but I am making progress.

Pattie’s firm admonition has led me to remember that sometimes we use the pains of the past as excuse to limp through life.

Because one person hurt us, we avoid others. Because one experience went badly, we withdraw into the mundane. Because one boss failed to appreciate our efforts, we become lackadaisical or put forth only minimal effort. Because one congregation didn’t fulfill our family’s needs, we quit going to church. We limp around our families, our neighbors, our jobs, our communities. Limp, limp, limp, frequently reminding ourselves and others about our painful past.

There is certainly a period of recovery during which we must carefully protect the injured part. But there is also a period of recovery during which we must permit some degree of stress. Rehabilitation is sometimes painful. But if we endure the pain, continue the effort and refuse to baby ourselves right into disability, we may very well find ourselves not only healed but stronger than before.

H. Arnett
2/22/16

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Friday Invocation

May this good day
bring you good and grace,
courage and wisdom
to embrace each opportunity
and shun every temptation
that comes your way.

May the rising
of this good sun
find you at one with your Maker
and may you take each blessing
and return it, increased,
to those around you.

May you abound
in kindness, gentleness and mercy,
may each one who finds you
on this good day,
find themselves the better for it.

May the setting of the sun
bring you a peaceful ending
of this good day,
a gentle bending toward rest
and grateful
for each good blessing
that you brought to others.

H. Arnett
2/18/16

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Practice What You Preach

Among the many teachings of The Carpenter that we believers frequently ignore is one that is absolutely pivotal in sustaining good relationships. It is one that would prevent a great many disagreements from escalating into resentment and resentments from growing into grudges. Essentially it says, “Hey, look! If you have a problem with somebody or if you know somebody has a problem with you: go talk to that person.”

I have to admit that I occasionally find myself among that vast horde of professed Christians who fail to avail ourselves of obedience to that directive. I’ve seen the negative consequences of that failure in my own life, my own family, my own career and in my inadvertent snooping into the lives of many others.

So often it appears that we choose griping to many others rather than resolving the issue with the one. In the process, we not only keep ourselves stirred up, we also stir up many others. It starts with something like “You won’t believe what So-and-So did… or said… or didn’t do…” and then it goes on from there. Instead of clearing the air, it spreads the perceived stench. And the discontent. And the criticism. Instead of building or strengthening relationships, we drive the wedges deeper. Instead of gaining in understanding and respect for one another, we tear each other down and apart.

Now about now, you might be thinking, “Doc, you’re preaching kinda hard on this one, ain’t ya?” or perhaps you’re putting it to better phrasing than that. Well, I’ll let you in on a little secret, when I get really passionate in my preaching, you can be pretty sure that I’m preaching to myself as much as anybody else. That is certainly the case here.

A colleague of mine said something a couple of months ago that has been bugging me, eating on me, tearing away inside of me ever since then. I finally got so fed up with my own miserable self that I went and talked to that colleague yesterday. When I described the conversation and recounted the words that were spoken, I could see a clear look of surprise on her face. “Oh, no,” she explained, “that was an emotional response you got from me then. That’s not at all what my true opinion is.”

I have to tell you that I sure felt a lot better about things. Pretty much immediately. And once again, felt that old conviction, “Now wouldn’t you have been a lot happier if you’d done this about two months ago?”

Well, you know, I reckon I would. Seems like I’m always better off when I put more effort into my practicing than what I put into my preaching.

H. Arnett
2/17/16

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Make a Good Day

There is something about a sunny day in February, isn’t there?

Something refreshing, rejuvenating, even healing. In the midst of those weary gray days of winter, to have a bright warm day is quite the blessing. Even though we know that there is more of cold to come, more mornings of hard thick frost on the windshield, we feel a certain sort of cheer when the temperature gets quite near to sixty and the few clouds in the sky are high and white. Whatever else there is in our minds, we find a way to feel good, to return the smiles that greet us in the hallway, the cheerful wave from across the street. There is something about a sunny day in February, isn’t there?

Maybe a part of that is the change, the difference from the cold chilling cut of the wind. Maybe part of it is that it’s so obvious: bright sun, clear skies, warm air. Hard to miss that, Captain Obvious! Maybe part of it, too, is that it’s so easy to welcome and so obviously shared. Who doesn’t like a warm, sunny day in February?

The real challenge is to be that difference, to recognize the realities about us and yet still maintain a cheerful countenance. We don’t have to be human canaries, cheerfully chirping our way down the hall. Even the silent sparrow can bring some encouragement, just by doing what is needed without complaining, without declaring its misery while scratching through the snow on a bitterly cold day.

We all go through times when it’s not easy to see the good, not easy to believe in brighter days ahead. It’s easy to forget the promises that we have: God’s presence, God’s provision, God’s healing, God’s cleansing, God’s grace. And, one of my favorites: “He who has begun a good work in you will continue it until the day of His returning, until its completion in your being made complete and whole in Him.”

You want to ruin my day? Not impossible, and sometimes not even difficult. But at the end of that day and every other one, I will remember the Power that is working in me, the Grace that sustains me, and the Love that moves in me. I’m not there yet but I know that I am headed toward Heaven and every day between here and there is a day that He has made.

Why would I not choose to rejoice in it? Regardless of the weather…

H. Arnett
2/16/16

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Another Day Dawns

Out beyond the back of the house,
past the dark shapes of roofs
and the rising of black branches–
elm and maple and oak and a solitary pine–
the tall steel skeleton of the radio tower
stretches its stark lines into the air,
spanning the shift from orange to rose
to the still soft blue of lingering night,
out past all of that,
comes the coloring of another dawn.

This sun will rise on the just and the unjust,
bring blessing on both good and evil,
and misfortune as well.
There will be both storm and calm,
scorching and freezing,
loss and gain,
birth and death.

With each breath,
I will embrace the challenges
and face the blessings
that have been prepared for me.
And in my resting,
will try to lie down a better man
than the day found me.

H. Arnett
2/12/16

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Living Waters

It was semi-warm yesterday but rather breezy which usually means it doesn’t really feel all that warm. But by mid-afternoon, the skies had pretty much cleared and so it looked warmer. Sometimes, the way things look can make things seem better. Things seemed so much better by 3:30, I decided to head out to the Cowley Lake Waterfall.

Since I’d already been out to the waterfall three or four times before and had never seen any water falling, I expected this trip to be the same. That was okay by me; it’s a really pretty area and Layla and I would enjoy the hiking. Layla is our rescued French Brittany Spaniel and Friendly Neighborhood mix and she loves to be outside. She always loves the rare opportunities she has had to be outside, unconfined and untethered. Besides, my brother Paul was here for the weekend and he’s never seen the Cowley Lake Waterfall, with or without water.

After we parked the car and Layla had made the necessary preparations for continuation, we continuated. Much to my surprise, I heard water falling. Sure enough, when we had made our way past the shroud of brush and branches, we could see water spilling over the north edge of the stone lip and streaming down onto the ground thirty feet below the crest of the falls.

We made our way down the bouldered trail to a lower vantage point. Water tumbled over and around the boulders, stones and rocks, streaming its way downstream, twisting around exposed roots and into the chutes. Silver ripples and reflecting edges showed the ledges of a few flat boulders. The smooth flat of deeper pools downstream gleamed in the afternoon sun as the creek moved from the shadows into the light.

We stood beneath old sycamores and young saplings, looking up at the cascade of water and the lichen covered edges of exposed bedrock. The sounds and sights of powerful waters pouring into the deep pool and pushing into the seams was both soothing and stirring. I have to admit, a waterfall with water falling over it is even more impressive than a dry one.

It is a similar difference with a Christian in whom the Spirit of God truly lives and moves.

H. Arnett
2-8-16

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A Familiar Story

I got a call from an old friend of mine Tuesday evening. He was planning on passing through the area and asked if I’d be available for a while Wednesday evening to visit. “Well, yeah,” I told him. “If you’re willing to drive a bit out of your way, I’d love to see you.”

And so it was that I spent a couple of hours as the day faded yesterday, reminiscing and remembering and doing a bit of catching up.

I’ve heard people talk for years about how it is with good friends, how it doesn’t matter how long it’s been since you talked, you just seem to pick up right where you left off and move on. Yep, it was like that.

It was both familiar and reassuring to see him sitting on the couch, talking about people we both knew from long ago. “Do you remember so-and-so?” he’d ask and we’d take off on another old familiar path rambling off from Memory Lane. We shared memories about old folks and kids we’d known when we were growing up. We swapped stories about stuff that was going on in our lives now. We told jokes and even discussed a news item or two. The conversation continued as I took him on a tour of the Cowley Campus.

He was as impressed as I had been on my first tour. I took him into the Brown Center and showed him our theatre. It still impresses me every time I look at it; it’s not what you’d expect to find on a small college campus in southern Kansas. Paul admired some of the pictures of the seventy-plus annual Queens of Arkalala. As we were walking through Galle-Johnson, he noticed the clean walls and shiny floors and commented, “Boy, you sure have some good custodians here, don’t you?” I cheerfully agreed. Indeed we do. We have all sorts of good people here in Ark City.

I showed him my office and introduced him to one of my colleagues who was working late. We chatted for a few minutes and then headed back out to the car. “Well,” he drawled, “reckon I better be getting on my way.”

We sat outside the house for a few more minutes, then shook hands and said our goodbyes. I don’t know when I’ll see him again but I do know it will be good when I do. Won’t matter if it’s next week, next year or next century. We’ll be glad to see each other. There’ll be a comforting familiarity and we’ll both have big grins on our faces. We’ll embrace one another and be thankful for the privilege of association. We won’t worry about who’s got what or who can get there the fastest. We’ll just be glad to be together.

Kind of sounds like heaven, doesn’t it?

H. Arnett
2/4/16

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