Mountaineer Mud Run

Had he lived another five years, my father, Charlie Arnett, would turn 100 this Saturday, September the 14th. He helped raise six kids, survived several cancers, continued cutting his own firewood into his nineties and preached his last sermon just a few months before he died.

Earlier this summer, my oldest sister, Freeda, had her second cancer surgery in less than two years. She lost a chunk of hip muscle in one of the surgeries. In spite of that, a couple of weeks ago she spent a weekend cleaning up the yard around the mountain cabin she and Olian bought on the Blue Ridge Parkway in North Carolina a few years ago. You know, just the usual: chopping out weeds, clearing out fallen brush and pushing over a dead tree or two to. She’s a year or two past the seventy mark but don’t let her know that I told you that.

My other sister, Patsy, who is several years younger than Freeda, has endured fibromyalgia for many years. Along with some other medical issues, she had a knee replacement a couple of years ago and is currently battling a respiratory infection. She lives in Abilene, Texas.

My brother, Paul, is a strapping lad just a bit less than four years older than me. He had a colon polyp removed a few months back, prompting me to embrace the pleasures of a colonoscopy shortly thereafter. His wife, Debee, endured months of complications following intestinal surgery last year. They live in Lancaster, Ohio, not far from Columbus.

My own health challenges out here in eastern Kansas have been pretty darn mild, comparatively. It is true that I had a massive blood clot that totally blocked the femoral vein in my left leg from mid-calf to the groin area. And, according to the cardiologist, an irregular heartbeat. But a daily dose of Warfarin and aerobic exercise seems to keep both in check.

In addition to those challenges, and far greater than the ones I have dealt with, my siblings have endured the affliction of genetic connection to me for nearly sixty years now. Debee, being more fortunate, has only had the complications of association for forty-one years, giving her a decided advantage, I would say.

Lord willing, all five of us will be participating in the first annual Mountaineer Mud Run at Boone, North Carolina, this Saturday.

We are doing this to celebrate Freeda’s survival, to enjoy the blessings of family and to honor the memory of a man more inclined to deal with whatever life dished out rather than to sit around feeling sorry for himself. And maybe, a bit, to show ourselves that getting old might mean slowing down but it doesn’t mean stopping. Our mother is still getting around a bit and she’s 98. It seems we come from the sort of stock that life insurance companies love and retirement fund administrators hate.

Regardless of fiduciary concerns, the current plan is for me to run quasi-competitively in the ten o’clock wave that morning. Then, the five of us will enjoy a leisurely stroll along the course at two in the afternoon. It is possible that one or more of us will actually attempt some of the obstacles. But after all that we have faced and in which we have seen the faithfulness of God’s good grace, a mountain hike that includes a little mud and barbed wire just doesn’t seem all that daunting.

At least not yet.

H. Arnett
9/12/13

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In Memory of Willow Long

Somewhere inside us,
in that place where we keep such things
that we really don’t want to face
but must acknowledge,
we store the awareness
that the awful things that happen to others
could happen to someone we know.

In another place,
a place of long-fanged terror,
we keep the confession
that they could happen to us.

Some people live in that place
their whole lives
and others find themselves
swept into the agony of discovery:
waking from a nap
to find a seven-year-old daughter
missing,
hundreds of neighbors, friends and strangers
searching for thirty-odd hours,
the eventual discovery:
body found in a trash bag beside the road
a few miles away from the home.
The averted eyes of searchers and law enforcement
confirm by their silence
what they will not state
pending further investigation.

And then in what should have been
the ending of horror
and the beginning of tortured grief,
the brother of the mother
confessed that he is the murderer.

No one with any choice
would choose to know
to the slightest degree
what such agony of evil
must do to the heart, the spirit, the mind.

And yet we must try,
otherwise,
how can we mourn
with those who mourn,
weep with those who weep?

H. Arnett
9/11/13

P.S. If you are at all inclined to prayer, please pray for this family. Willow is the grand-niece of a very good friend of ours here in Kansas.

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Preparing for the Race

I can feel the tensing in my thighs,
the rising heat in my calves,
pushing into the fourth mile
of this day’s training.

Even though the cycle
of elliptical path takes me nowhere,
I picture the course in my mind:
a dirt path, tree roots stretched across,
the dips of ditches and banks
and the steep climb up
on the other side.

Sweat seems to stream
from upper arms and neck,
runs from my forehead;
every seam of clothing is soaked.

Alternating every four-tenths of a mile,
I do twelve rapid reps on each of the
weight machines–
elbows tucked against the ribs
to keep from further injury
to the torn ligaments in the shoulder–
run back to the elliptical.

Nearing the fifth mile,
I feel that urging of the body,
the tiredness of legs and arms,
wanting me to ease up,
to be more sane,
feel the sharper pain in my side.

It is then that I picture
the last quarter-mile,
the uphill run that leads to done,
and I push,
forcing joint and tendon,
muscle and heart
to that final surge of completing
what was begun.

It is this discipline
of doing the difficult,
of refusing to surrender
to the weaknesses of flesh
that gives me hope
that I will finish the race,
complete the course,
and cross that final line
unashamed.

H. Arnett
9/10/11

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The Un-Callused Christian

Back in my younger days when I spent more time with a tool handle in my hands than I did sitting at a keyboard, I actually had calluses. The thick pads of desensitized skin protected the parts of my hands that gripped the strings of hay bales, held the handle of the hoe or shovel or tobacco knife and carried bucket after bucket of feed. Calluses serve a mighty good purpose for those whose lives require a constant amount of menial labor.

But when those calluses begin to form over our hearts, that’s not such a good thing.

Bombarded by constant news of terror and disaster, streaming images of famine and sickness, dramatic stills of violence and war, we lose our sensitivity, our awareness, our empathy. We begin to see such things as nothing more than news, a segue between commercials.

Other humans become abstractions, vague stereotypes, more shadow than substance. It often begins with those most distant, those most foreign, those we perceive to be least like ourselves. Through this practiced disassociation, though, we grow more and more indifferent to those who are nearer, the strangers next door.

Instead of clamoring for care and compassion, we turn a deaf ear and a dull eye toward disaster and disruption. Or, we respond to violence with greater violence, returning evil for evil when we were taught to return blessing for cursing. Instead of feeding and clothing the refugee, we threaten her oppressor with missiles and drones, bombs and bullets.

It is not in assassination and eradication that we personify Christ; it is rather as he put it, by serving “the least of these my brethren.” In this graceless age when even self-professed evangelists of the Prince of Peace often teach violence and vengeance it has become too easy to rationalize our indifference or even our hatred.

It is not crossing the “red line” of using chemical weapons that is the greatest danger to humanity and the world; it is the line between caring and not caring about the victims of all violence, whether personal or political.

The soft heart is surely more vulnerable, more prone to damage, more likely to sustain the injuries of involvement. But it is infinitely less likely to suffer the condemnation of its Creator.

H. Arnett
9/6/13

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Cool Morning

In the faintest glow of early light,
a few stars show through
the thin wisps of high clouds
sifting the heavens from north to south.

The shapes of trees emerge
from their leavening base;
clear traces of branches and leaves
etch black against the faint color of sky.

I stand shirtless in this morning air,
chill tracing bare skin
in the beginning of this day,
heavy dew soaking my shoes.

I pray for peace and wisdom,
wish for longer time
to stand in this defining coolness,
watch the first hints of color
changing the long lines of lingering clouds
just above the ridge
from their dull dark heaviness
to the first tinge of lavender,
to the full rose of rising sun,
to gleaming white in the rousing light
that ends night’s slow gray passing.

H. Arnett
9/5/13

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Earth Moving

Nearly a hundred years ago, when this house was built, the road ran along north of the property. The street or driveway to the highway lay to the east of the house. A concrete sidewalk leads away from the front porch, down six steps to the middle level of the yard, across that and then down another half-dozen steps to what was then the level of the street. At some point, maybe sixty years ago, engineers re-routed US 36 to the south side of the property.

Eventually, the owners built a new driveway to the new highway and the old ways became less used. Over the decades, occasional use was not enough to keep grass from taking over the old drive. With traffic and parking both now at the upper end of the yard, the sidewalk and steps serve little function. So, we decided to have them removed.

I contemplated trying to use my little Kubota tractor but an early experiment with tearing out the short narrow sidewalk that led to the old garden shed nixed that idea. There was no way it would handle over a hundred feet of the wider, thicker slab. So I called Mike Davis.

Mike is our local earth-moving, gravel-hauling, excavating guru. He is such a perfectionist at his work that he can’t find anyone who measures up to his standards. Which makes him hard to work for and great to hire. He did our driveway three years ago and did a great job with it. In spite of persistent eye problems following a work accident and a series of surgeries that only partially corrected the issues, he continues doing his work. Yesterday, while we were working at the college, he took out our concrete.

I expected to see tracks and skid tears all along both sides of the removal site when we got home. Instead, he started at the bottom and worked his way up, keeping most of the skid loader tracks in the old sidewalk bed. He also smoothed out the edges. He even loaded up the mess left from the burn pile and leveled out an extra fifty feet at the lower level of the yard. I was amazed and shouldn’t have been even slightly surprised.

That’s what Mike does: better work than you’d expect. And that deserves both respect and emulation. When a man with one eye can leave things better than he found them, what excuse do I have for doing anything less?

H. Arnett
9/4/13

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The Horse Whisperer

Unless you’re a bit more into horses and training them than the average human, you probably aren’t aware that you’ve ever heard of Buck Branaman. Unless you’re considerably less into movies or are somewhat younger than the average American, you probably have heard of him but didn’t know it.

He was Robert Redford’s model for the title role of the movie The Horse Whisperer as well as technical adviser on the film. He may well be the most renowned horse trainer in the world, conducting over two hundred clinics each year all over the United States and in other countries as well. As part of our celebration this past weekend of our 24th anniversary, Randa and I decided to attend a clinic he was conducting at Elkhorn, just west of Omaha, Nebraska.

During the lunch break on Friday, we talked with a younger middle-aged couple from south central South Dakota. I commented that Buck seemed to be exactly the same in person as he appeared in the documentaries and training videos. The man replied, “I don’t think there’s a false bone in his body.”

It is probably that one characteristic that is as remarkable as Buck’s ability to teach a horse to respond to one-finger pressure on a thirty-foot rope. It is as much a part of him as his uncanny capacity to use the slight lean of his body to direct a horse forward or backward. In one documentary clip, he sits in a chair as he holds a loose rope connected to a horse’s halter. Without moving from the chair, using only his light touch on the rope, he gets the horse to step into a horse trailer nearly forty feet away from him.

But what impresses me even more than that is his capacity to see right into people and to almost instantly “hear” beyond the words and expressions. And without the least bit of meanness, he speaks blunt truths that carry the capacity to change not only the way they ride and treat horses but also the way they live their lives. Certainly, he irritates the proud and stubborn, but to those whose desire to learn exceeds their ego, he offers wisdom that goes deeper than the hide and hair of the outer persona.

Whether watching his videos, reading his books or seeing him in person, there is something that consistently moves me. As I comprehend his way of working with people or horses and listen to his insights, I am moved again and again. And I am reminded of Randa. As I have seen her firm gentleness and incredible patience with people and animals and her constant loyalty and generosity toward family over the past twenty-four years, she has helped me move beyond my deeply rooted angers and selfishness.

It seems entirely appropriate for Randa and me to celebrate our years of marriage together by attending a Buck Branaman horse clinic. They both make me want to be a better person.

H. Arnett
9/3/13

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Morning Benediction

May the grace of God’s good hand
be upon you
and those you love
on this day
that he has made.

May the light of his love
and the glory of his wisdom
illuminate the path before you.

May the peace
of the purpose of Christ
fill your heart,
your mind
and your spirit.

May the calm and pleasant presence
of the Holy Spirit
be both balm and ointment
over every care and concern.

May your heart show forth
a witness of grace and good will
toward all those
that you meet.

May your words and your touch
speak of gentleness,
peace
and light.

May you be blessed
on this good day
and may others give thanks
for you,
your words,
your touch.

H. Arnett
8/29/13

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Grizzly Encounter

They worked their way across the slope, around and between the boulders of the Alaskan Wilderness, bow hunting for caribou. They first saw the grizzly, upwind and upslope of them, from nearly a half-mile away. They knew right away it had seen them, too. Even though they tried flattening out against the rocks, the bear had already recognized invaders in its hunting ground.

Dan told me, “It started coming toward us in kind of a lope. Then, it stopped for a moment about a quarter mile away, sniffing the air and looking. Then, it started toward us at a dead run.”

I cannot imagine and do not ever want to know what that was like.

“That thing was the size of a car. It was covering fifteen feet with each bound; it covered that quarter-mile in less than thirty seconds.” He paused, re-living the experience. “Its claws were as long as my fingers and they were just gleaming like pearls.”

“We threw down our packs with our sandwiches and snacks in them and tried to move away from them. It was like every second was a minute long and yet the whole thing was going by in an instant. I kept thinking about how much my wife and kids were going to miss me. ‘This isn’t how I want my life to end.’ We were praying out loud.”

In the desolation of that area, in its remoteness, it would have been days, at least, before anyone found the evidence of what had happened. The other hunters were miles away from them; their own vehicle was a mile away. There was no cover, no refuge, no trees to climb, even if they’d had time. They did the only thing they could do. “We stood side by side, a few feet apart, waving our arms, holding our bows above our heads, screaming as loud as we could and jumping up and down. And still praying.”

After thinking for what seemed an eternity that the grizzly was going to just keep coming at a full charge, they saw it pull up to a stop about thirty yards away. “I kept thinking about how powerful they are. We had our bows and Ben had a can of bear mace. I had an arrow notched in my bow. But we knew that there was nothing we could do that would stop it. Nothing. Even without claws they are so powerful they can break your neck with a single swipe.” A grizzly’s canine teeth are two inches long and its jaws so strong that it can pierce or even crush a human skull with a single bite.

Knowing that you are helpless against a formidable foe is humbling, to say the least. Actually, it’s terrifying.

“He stopped, looking at us, and then started sidling around us, like he was looking for our vulnerable spot, getting ready to come in for the kill. We kept yelling and jumping and waving our arms, making as much noise as we possibly could as he moved downwind of us.”

During this whole episode of time frozen and yet whipping by like the wind in a gale, the sky had been darkening more and more. “These clouds were moving in fast. We knew that in a little while visibility was going to drop to just about zero.” The thought of an aroused grizzly waiting in the dark added even more horror to their circumstance.

“Then, just when it looked like he was ready to make his final charge, all of a sudden he froze as if he had just seen something right beside us. Then, he spun around and took off as if he was as terrified as we were. I mean he looked like he was running for his life.”

For those so inclined, this would seem the time to speculate about angels and spirits and divine intervention. For others, such speculation is nothing more than fanciful imagination, the projection of desired belief onto a situation. I do know that for these two outdoorsman brothers from Kentucky, there was no doubt that God himself had come to their defense; by whatever means did not particularly matter to them. Explanations are always secondary in the aftermath of deliverance.

“As that bear was tearing off down the long slope away from us, it seemed like one of those clouds moved right over him. When he was maybe three hundred yards away from us, all at once this rainbow shows up, just framing him in perfectly.”

It was not the first time that God provided a rainbow as a sign of deliverance, a sparing from destruction, a reminder in the skies of a divine promise. I can more than imagine the poignancy that my son Dan felt in the touch of his wife and his children as he kissed them in their beds late that night.

H. Arnett
8/27/13

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Answered Prayers

For the past several months, Randa and I have been praying for God’s direction in our life and in our church. It has been a bit of an unsettled summer. I had actually interviewed for another job a hundred-and-fifty miles away. I’d been really excited about the prospect of a new job but not at all excited at the prospect of moving again. Randa: less than me on both points.

As things have worked out, we have seen God’s hand at work in a wonderful way. In the past month, we’ve seen chance encounters with strangers bring us both blessing and direction.

Just a few days ago, we picked up a young man who’d missed his ride near the Menard’s store where he works on the southeast edge of Saint Joe. As we drove the few miles of city routes toward his home near Lovers’ Lane, he told us a bit about himself and eventually asked if we had a church.

The conversation became so engaging at that point that I forgot to ask him where he lived and he forgot to tell me until we drove past it. I backed into a nearby driveway and turned around, headed back. As I started to pull over to the curb to let him out, he shared a rather interesting statement about the particular moment when we offered him a ride.

“I had just finished praying, ‘Lord, if there’s somebody around here who could give me a ride, just send them over here to me.’ I opened my eyes and your car was stopped right in front of me.”

We had to chuckle out loud at that, and shake our heads in believing wonder. When we accept that following the leading of the Spirit may be a little inconvenient at times, when we find ourselves willing to go a bit out of way to serve others, we may very likely discover that finding the answer to our prayers leads us to be the answer to others.

H. Arnett
8/23/13

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